Tuesday, June 23, 2009


Loosing, gaining....two verbs used with the word trust. And, they can be used at the same time -maybe the subject changes. In every moment of the day I am loosing trust or someone is loosing my trust. I am gaining trust or someone is gaining my trust. We are trying to teach our kids about trust. I always think of it as they need to gain our trust. I realized this morning that they need to gain my trust too. Somewhere between infancy and 9,8,6 years of age there has been some trust lost. I realize that I need to work at regaining the trust - the trust of total security; the trust of love and acceptance no matter what they do or say; the trust of being able to tell me anything at anytime.

God doesn't need to earn my trust - it is His by rightful design. I on the other hand just need to see and accept it. It is there for my taking. The trust that I have total security in Him; the trust that He loves and accepts me no matter what I do or say; the trust of being able to tell Him anything at anytime.

Heavenly Father, I thank you for your great and glorious gift of trust. May I guard and cherish and use this gift to the full capacity that you intended when you gave it to me.

Friday, June 19, 2009


The past 6 months have been a roller coaster for me as I have been standing silent. Is that an oxi-moran? I am not sure one stands silent as they are on a roller coaster. Maybe more like sitting screaming. I think maybe - MAYBE - the roller coaster is coming to and end - and I am ready to get off. This past month has been the most growth/healing that I think I have ever experienced. Growth and healing don't come cheap or easy. It's actually very costly and very painful. But OH, the joy that comes with the sweet sweet dawning of a beautiful clear blue sunny day! I anticipate many posts to come out of this past month. This blog will more than not become my processing of this moth. I am excited to see what God is going to do with my silent standing (or is it my sitting screams?!?!).

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The First of Many

Most of you reading this already know about me and the blog I have been keeping for the past several years. This blog will take a slightly different twist from The Clow Communicator. I am happy to get started on what I hope is the first of many posts to come.

You may be wandering why I titled the blog Standing Silent. The past few months have been...well...for now let's say...difficult! God is refining, reviving and renewing John and I and our four kiddos. We are in a "waiting hold" not knowing what the next step will be for us. Two weeks ago I was a last minute stand in teacher for Evan's Sunday school class. I looked around the classroom and the only material I could find were coloring sheet on Moses crossing the Red Sea. While Evan and his best friend Silas (the only ones in the class) colored Moses I read from Exodus 14. One verse JUMPED off the page at me: "...Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the LORD, which He will accomplish for you today." Exodus 14:13

Today I am standing still. I am watching and waiting to see the salvation of the LORD. Come quickly Lord Jesus. Come quickly!