Tuesday, May 31, 2011


I have been sad the past several days.  No particular reason that I could come up with.  Until today.  Today marks one year since I last communicated with my sister.  She is the middle child, and when I came along she wasn’t too happy about it.  We have never had a close or happy relationship. Just one battle after another.  We have had moments and I know that she loves me.  We just are polar opposites.

It seems whether I open my mouth or not, I offend.  I apologize when it’s brought to my attention, but I never feel as if the apologies are accepted.  A year ago today I wished my nephew a happy birthday on facebook.  What I actually wrote was ‘happy birthday to my favorite nephew’.  My sister was offended because it was not her child that I was writing that to.  She let me know her feelings about it.  I wrote back and apologized and explained that it was a running joke between the aunts, nephews and nieces to play the ‘I’m your favorite/you’re my favorite’ card.  I never heard back from her.  I have since tried several times to send her notes.  Never a response.

It’s been hard to be ignored, feel forgotten, by a sister.  More so I think it hurts because she played more than a sister role in my life.  I’m sad that I don’t have a relationship with her two boys.  I am sad that my children don’t know their aunt.  I love my sister. I wish I felt that love returned.

If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Romans 12:18